29th June, 2002
I’ve decided to start writing a journal. Not for any specific reasons; more so because I often times have nobody else to speak with about the kind of things I feel I need to say or get off my chest. And it never hurts to keep track of past events in your life, no matter how big or small. It’s unlikely that I’ll ever let anyone else read this, but if anything it will be a sort of stress reliever and a way to help with my writing skills in case I ever end up going to college. I don’t think that I’ll write in this journal every night, but rather when I feel as though I need to get something off my mind and on to paper. Often times I’ll have something stirring in my head that I can’t seem to express without sitting down and writing it out. So whenever I feel like I need to, or whenever I have the chance and feel like adding to it, I will. Alright, now that I’ve explained the reason why I’m starting this journal, it’s time to…start the journal.
I suppose the first thing I want to put in to words is how much it sucks having to switch schools; especially when you’re someone who has a hard enough time making new friends. It’s not that I don’t try, or that I’m socially awkward I don’t think. I’m just not as outgoing as most people, and I admit a tad shy. I’ve been at the new school for an entire semester and can honestly say I’ve got two friends; one of whom that transferred from my old school, so he barely counts as a new friend. At least at the old school I was friends with the same kids since seventh grade and also had the baseball team to hang out with outside of class. I’m trying to be out going now, but I can never seem to come out of my shell when interacting with new people. Not even sure why, since nobody has ever been mean or bullied me at all growing up. I suppose I’ve just always never really been the type of person to open up to people until I know them.
Maybe I am a shy person, after all, who knows? All I do know for sure is that I’m glad that I only have one semester of senior year to go and then I’m officially done with high school for good. It was definitely the right choice to take those two classes this summer and get them out of the way so I could graduate early. As much as it sucked going to school during the first month of the summer, at least now I can get it all over with a lot sooner.
Other than enjoying my shortened summer without having any real friends, the only other thing going on in my life is that I had an interview for my first job yesterday. It’s nothing too exciting, just a produce clerk at a local grocery store, but at least I’ll be making money and it will give me something to do other than sitting around my room or playing video games all night like I normally would be doing during the summer. Hopefully I’ll get enough hours to make it worth it and to get my own car. We’ll see, I guess.