2nd September, 2002
School officially started back up today. As much as I miss the summer, and being able to sleep in on days that I worked late, I’m not so annoyed by it this year. I’ve got something more important to look forward to, and I know that I only have to do this for another three and a half months and I’ll be done. That still hasn’t completely rid my feelings of being bored with the entire process though. I’ve always been disinterested in school and have always felt like it wasn’t challenging enough. I’ve never gotten good grades, just average, but not because I’m an average minded person, but rather because I’ve never felt the need or desire to extend myself past their own simple standards.
Why would I work harder than I had to just because they make it so easy to be average? I’ve always made sure to pass most of my classes, mostly in order just to play baseball without getting shit because of bad grades from the coaches. I have literally four more classes left and none of them seem all that hard or interesting; Senior English, Earth Science, and then two computer classes. One of the two friends I had at this school last year transferred, so it’s down to just the one, and she and I don’t even have any classes together. This kind of sucks, but not much I can do about that.
Since I’m graduating early, I won’t even be able to play baseball this year I found out. They said last year before I agreed to take those summer courses to finish early that it wouldn’t be a problem. But now they are saying that if I don’t have any courses in the spring time, I won’t be considered an active student and won’t be allowed to play. I’m not going to take classes just to play baseball. Maybe I would have if I didn’t have the Army stuff going on, but it seems like baseball just isn’t as important to me anymore. And for good reason, I think. It’s not important at all.
I want to make the most of my last year as a civilian, but I also want to be as prepared as I can be when June comes around. And trying to fit baseball, work, school, and the DEP program in to half a year isn’t something that seems all that appealing to me. So I’m going to talk to Coach Bryce about it tomorrow and let him know that I don’t plan on playing my final season. I doubt he’ll be too happy about it, since even last year as a Junior I had some colleges interested in me playing for them. He’s probably going to try and talk me in to playing and get me to consider going to one of those colleges, but I’ve already sworn in to the Army and there is no way I’d back out now just for more school.